SAD!!!!

the things that most i dun wan 2 happens happened 2day!!!
Jeff cum n tell me gt F5 boy say i'm "hiao"! omg!! can't accept it! u can say me 38 say me ugly say me short say me fat or whatever!but can't say me "hiao"! i really can't accept ppl thought i'm hiao!
Y Y Y? i hav no interact wif F5 boy ok! my pattern is like that since b4 mah...ntg ok! haiz...i really miss my fren! at least no ppl will think me like tat...they all know me! understand me! T_T not like here! small small matter also wan make till so big matter!i really not girls like that! really really really! i dun know which part of me making them hav such this "jiko" thinking! mayb i talk too much wif boys o i always smiling n laughing...what i can say is i really can't believe city's ppl also so "conservatism"but anyway! i won't let this matter continue 2 spread! if not i really dun know wat i will do!
i feel not adapted wif the environment of muar! a big gap compare 2 our previos sch... previously, we all always joking, laughing...all ppl like tat, but here...i dun know y la...mayb they r more high class or watever la!they seems like 开不起玩笑! ok...fine! i 配合u all! but wan me dun joking is something impossible la...i will really try my best not talking too much! anything i wan 2 say i try 2 keep inside my heart! although i hav never put anythings sad or secret in my heart but! ntg is impossible rite! moon also ppl can climb up! how difficult 2 hide my words in my own heart!!! T_T its the time 4 me 2 totally change my characteristic! although it will no longer me! but for the sake of stopping the stupid thinking of others...i hav no choice 2 do that! i will make myself dissapear in the crowd!
i will only show the true of me in front the frens that really know me, really know i'm not such this type of girl!
T_T this matter REALLY broken my heart into pieces n pieces...the wound won't cure!
I'm crying while writing this... so u can know how hurt is it?
can't blame any1...is my fault! jeff i'm not blaming u! i should thanks u for telling this 2 me!
haiz...now listen 2 any lyric song also i feel wan 2 cry!T_T
my mood 2day: DOWN!